I have self diagnosed OCD (Could be something different but through my experiences, symptoms and research I can’t imagine it being anything else unfortunately) and I also have Anxiety. It’s very difficult for me to watch movies with severely mentally ill people or people going insane without getting anxiety that I will inevitably become like that. I can’t remember when it started happening, but it had to have been sometime in 2016. I remember the worst time was when I was watching the shining and that is already a very unsettling movie but I was so afraid that I would become like Jack Nicholson and want to murder my entire family like his character. I had very bad anxiety 3-4 hours after it finished and it would randomly pop into my mind for a week. It doesn’t even have to be serial killers, I watched Fight Club and I was afraid I was going to end up like Edward Norton, and I even got scared of it while watching Memento. What triggers me to write this is I’m watching right now a series on Netflix called MindHunters and it’s about these guys who interview serial killers in prison to try and understand criminal psychology, and every time I watch an episode I can feel the anxiety coming back. Especially when the serial killers are discussing traumatic experiences or anything that could have shaped them into that. The thing is I love those movies and I love this show. I don’t want to give up film because of this. Am I normal? Has anyone else dealt with this? How can I cope? Do I have to give up movies? I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I just want to feel normal again