Hi everyone. So I'm new to Reddit and to give a bit of context, I'm a Graphic Designer living with Autism, who has been struggling a lot lately.

I started a new role as a Junior Designer at an agency, (following an internship at a start-up company) and I'm terrified that I won't make it past my probationary period.

The issue isn't relating to creativity (i.e. being able to come up with new concepts and ideas), but more my ability to understand specifically what the client and my boss wants, without misunderstanding. I also have also have great difficulties with memory, which means that when it comes to feedback on my work, I usually miss something off, even when I write it down.

The main difficulties I experience with Autism are:

1. Difficulties with language and communication.
2. Problems with short-term memory.
3. Executive functioning, which includes self-monitoring, organising and planning and problems with switching back and forth between tasks.

On top of this, I also think I'm suffering with problems from Anxiety and Depression, (which I'll admit that I first started seeing the signs before I started work with the agency), which have progresively gotten worse to a point where I realise I can no longer cope on my own. Symptoms I'm currently experiencing include: loss of appetite, oversleeping, feelings of emptiness/, feeling like a failure, feelings of guilt and hopelessness, decreased energy etc.

As a result, I've booked a Doctor's appointment this week, in the hope that I will be able to seek help and am also thinking about raising the issue with my employer, but have no idea how.

The worst part is, (which sounds horrible), is that a lot of how I'm feeling at the moment goes back to my disability and worrying about how much I'm going to struggle later in life with regards to employment.

So, are there any Autistics/ anyone else who can relate and how did you go about raising the issue with your employer. Did you quit, discuss the issue with your boss or continue on, despite knowing the struggle? Thank you.