Something I've been stressing about and just tried to post to another sub:

"Bit of back story: I was out clubbing last night and was completely hammered, I also did a small amount of coke (I know this causes paranoia). I also suffer from having REALLY vivid dreams, once or twice I've mistaken them for memory.

Long story short a couple of girls ended up taking me and my friend into a gay club, was a good night and the place was enjoyable apart from a few creepy old guys (now I know how young women feel most the time haha, men are fiends). For some reason I seem to remember, and it's hazy as fuck, some guy came up to me and shook my hand, then kissed it, he then told me to kiss his and I was just out of it having a good time and did (again I suffer from very vivid dreams so I'm sorry if I am sounding silly). Then I seem to remember some girl I was talking with telling me not to (maybe she was just trying to help look out for me as I was in a pretty suggestible state), and after I did she/maybe the guy said he had HIV and had just given it to me (after being paranoid all day I started googling whether this is the case and saw the myth of people ifecting other and saying "welcome to my world", I also believe he may have said this to me, but maybe I'm only "remembering" this because I read it) she then got all upset crying and said she couldn't talk to me anymore (AGAIN this is all hazy, I could be making it up in my mind, being paranoid, or remembering a dream), and that she was sorry.

Could HIV even spread in any way at all in this situation? like maybe he had an open wound on his hand that the girl noticed? I know people with HIV don't go around trying to spread it and gay men arent some angry group trying to kill the world off, but whats the chance that some crazy guy tried to infect me for some reason? And again are there many ways this is possible in the situation?

I will be going to the sexual health clinic to be tested on Monday as nowhere is open on a Sunday, I'm also going to book myself in to see a psychiatrist. I'm sorry if i sound naive and ignorant but I am driving myself crazy, I feel less panicky than I did earlier, but still worried, maybe it was paranoia from the coke? I'm aware I sound extremely paranoid but there are some crazy dickheads in the world, even if they a few and far between. Thanks for any advice/thoughts on the matter.

I should add that the worrying all started after smoking some marijuana with my friend, and I could not stop thinking about it to the point I was nearly in tears, I was thinking about it for a good 3 hours straight, and had to leave to go home because I just wanted to hide away in my room. I know I've just shot every idea down and its more likely I am going crazy and need help with my mental health but I am just so scared and don't know if I can trust my own mind or not."

Should I see a doctor about my mental health or am I right to be worried? I feel like my question and story sounds as if I am insane. As a side note I have very bad anxiety and depression, my mental health is kinda a state - maybe its getting even worse.