I’ve suffered hallucinations and delusions since I was a kid. Recently they’ve grown unbearably worse. I hallucinate whenever I’m not completely focused on something else and it’s like I can’t control my own thoughts. It’s impossible to sleep because of it and it just makes it worse. And until now, I’ve been able to recognize when something was real or fake, but now its all blurred together. At night its worse. I go through bouts of depression because of it. Have panic attacks. I’ve called the police to my house over things that weren’t real in the end. It’s effecting me greatly. I’m afraid I won’t be able to function in normal life however...

I’m terrified the doctor won’t believe me. And if he does, I’m afraid he’ll have me admitted to the hospital and I’ll lose my job and anger my family. I’ve gone to the doctor just to chicken out and not tell them everything before but...I can’t keep on like this. Especially not with the stress of college and having a roommate around me all the time.

I just don’t know how to tell him... I’m scared to.

I don’t know exactly what I intended this post to be for... I guess to get all this off my chest, get some reassurance, advice, etc.. I guess it would be to get it off my chest mostly, but any advice would help. I’m in the US if that changes anything...