I've always felt that there was something wrong with me, but my parents have said otherwise. People seem to think my social interactions are sometimes weird. For example, I was just teasing my friend by playing with her glasses and out of nowhere a girl next to us asked me if I was okay. I said "Yes, why?". She said "You look like you were panicking." I didn't really know how to respond to that. Or sometimes I might accidentally say things to myself that I blurt out whenever I remember a painful/embarrassing memory. I just feel so tense in public that I don't know what to do with myself. It's like I'm more robot than human. Sometimes, I lock/tense up and I twitch my neck. Eye contact actually weirds me out; I just don't like it, it's so uncomfortable for me. I just can't deal with this anymore. I thought everything was fine, but it's not. Almost like I'm disguising myself all the time. I've started doing poetry to cope with it.I daydream as well with my head in the clouds, even during my college courses. I may not be mentally ill (I certainly hope not at least), but I need advice. I'd be happy to post the poems to if needed. Thanks for reading .