I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing because I want to do the right thing ( at least according to my own internal code ) or if I'm doing it to please people. After I left a night of ideas at UofT, I found myself saying to myself that I am a loser, and that I always do the wrong thing and always mess up after I had a few realizations. Deep down, despite this feeling, I can't give up what I believe.