I'm a 20 year old male living in Louisville Kentucky. I've been dealing with quite a few mental health problems for roughly ten years, and i have no idea what i should do to start the process of healing. I have no friends who i can properly talk to about this, nor do i have any family members who have experience dealing with mental illness (at least ones who wouldn't give me hell for it).

My issues include:

• Depression (officially diagnosed)
• Severe inability to stay focused
• Inability to feel emotions except anger, anxiety, and sadness
• Social fatigue
• Constantly suicidal (never done anything, though i've been close before)
• No drive to do anything, to the point where it feels like i CAN'T do anything. Even making this post took a lot of mental effort.
• Inability to enjoy anything, even the things that used to relax me
• irritability
• Triggered (why do people think its funny to use this word as a joke) by the idea that i could be a disappointment, to the point where i have severe anxiety for the rest of the day and can't calm down.
• Brain fog

There are probably more i can't think of at the moment, i might add more later. I've talked to my doctor about this and hes suggested i see a therapist, though he didn't really even bother to go beyond surface level. I've been on a few medications, but the best one i've had so far is Bupropion XL, but all its done is calm my irritability some. I've been seeing my doctor about this for a year, but nothing is getting done and he seems to not care.

I just want to know what to do, i've never had to deal with stuff like this before, and all the people who i ask for help aren't giving me the resources i need to start getting better.