M/26/USA

I've been having some odd medical issues (muscle pains, joint aches, nausea, fatigue, unexpected weight loss) over the past month+.

Been to the doctor once (when the only symptom was back pains) and was diagnosed with stress trigger points. But the fact that more and more symptoms are coming up have me worried that the issue is really something systematic and that I have a life-threatening disease or that I have cancer.

I have another appointment to see a doctor in a few weeks but in the meantime I can't shake the feeling that I am dying and that I am going to go to that appointment and get diagnosed with bone cancer or a brain tumor.

It seems like the universe is foreshadowing my demise. Recent talks with coworkers/friends/family seem to inevitably arrive at a story of someone who has/had cancer. Even the media I consume (podcasts/online videos/tv shows) weirdly have coincidentally brought up life ending diseases in recent episodes. Even as I type this, the video I'm watching just brought up the fact that someone they knew just up and died out of nowhere due to cancer.

I'm walking around all day thinking I better get my affairs in order, and freaking out that come next month I might not even be here. Not sure if anyone can really help me with this, but I kind of needed to vent it all because it's really freaking me out.