i am in my 30's from norway and had slow increasing depression for years. i have a physiatrist and are drug free.
im not sure where to start, because i dont know where it began. but i do have clear past trauma but dont know if its just the straw that broke the camel's back or something else. the problem with my trauma is that its years since it happened and its was something done towards me, and it seems like its normal behaviour in society, not always accepted as good but human flaw. the details may not be important but how i go about living with it and the human world as me.
is it just up to me to change values and let people get away with this? because intelligent thinking and a loving heart wont fit in this society and maybe it is my choice to let it affect me this way because if i just dont have any reaction to it, they get away with it. many people kill in the moment and that is considered normal, but its been years since for me and i choose to react with love so that moment has passed for me. is it justice i feel? because what happened to me is very windescread and maybe thats why its so accepted and it feels like i have to get over it to fit in, but if i just fit in i wont make a difference or a change in the world. and we need a better world.