Hello everyone, this is more of a "I'm seeing this too much and I'm too intimidated to check if something might be wrong" post. I'm a student living in America not from here though. Got here on a scholarship, everything was fine. My course started acting funny and asked me to leave in the last semester and said I need to get a mental health check-up before they can keep me. This was because they said I wasn't progressing fast enough seeing my patients. I was determined to be what I came here to be but all I got was a " you can't always get what you want" during my final meeting. Long story short I HAD to transfer as I couldn't stay in the country long enough to actually go to counseling and make a plan ( which I later found out was not legal for then to do from my ombudsman). I couldnt/ can't fight a legal battle there because again I had 2 months in the country on a student budget and the USA is expensive!

It was a tough last 6 months but I'm finally in my last semester. Problem is to that I think I have this PTSD/depression thing going on. I'm constantly doubting myself ( I feel it's because I never knew anything was wrong till the end in the last course) I take like 15 mins to send an email cz I'm looking over and over thinking my words in case they offend anyone and I've started thinking in my head so much that I'm scared its making me dissociative at times. I lose track of sentences ppl are speaking sometimes and tend to forget stuff and information general. This never happened before but it's kinda hampering my relationships and confidence. It comes to a point where I feel like crying for no reason almost like 50% of the time now

I'm a little intimidated about seeking help because of the stigma it might put on me, or what my family and friends might think. This never happened before, and I was always stress free earlier but all I seem to do now is stress.

Apologies if this doesn't fit here.