Hey guys, I know you aren't doctors but I'm wondering what you'd think.

My Dad's mom's schizophrenia embodied itself after she gave birth to my dad at age 40 (accidental). Few down the years where my Dad was moving out she apologized for how his father abused him so much growing up and for his terrible like. He stops by next week and sees her hanging. Sounds like a soap opera, right?

Anyways. Through my mother I got Bipolar II, I believe I gained the disposition of my BPD through my Dad (who I swear has it too, most of his behaviours check out.

Right now I'm just thinking about it, not too paranoid or whatever, just wondering some stuff. If by odd chance I have it, maybe it hasn't manifested itself. Or if it has, my medication works for bout Bipolar and Schizophrenia and I've been on medication since 10 years old so I'd probably be medicating it already. I know I probably don't have it but it's a though. Some time I want to go bed free so I can possibly live in another country and just be free from it in general but I'm curious when I do, some mental health issues may arise that are more than I can handle.

Like my biggest fear is to say, go med free, get myself together, do something with my life, then fall back down and have to be dependent on my parents or the hospital.

I won't stress about it. I just have thoughts regarding whether I'd have the pre-disposition for it and what environmental faster could may trigger it. Dunno. Opinions?