My anxiety is why I haven’t eaten properly since 2016
During the course of 2016 I steadily had to cut out more and more food/drinks. I allowed myself a treat every now and then, but not often, and not without going through a strict regiment of cleaning my teeth afterwards. Towards the end of the year, I decided that the wisest thing to do would be to eat one meal every other year.
2017 was different. I became more relaxed and I started eating two meals per day, followed by a cleaning regiment that probably didn’t take much more than 15 minutes (as opposed to 40 minutes). Still, I stopped eating and drinking more and more stuff. Some of the stuff I had to cut out were: fruits and every kind of spice there is. It’s safe to say... there are a lot of things I enjoy that I will not even touch.
As the year progressed, I eventually went back to one meal per day. Towards the end of the year, I went back to every other day. The meals also became smaller. I went from your average meal to just a few sandwiches.
Now, in 2018, I am currently planning on going two days without eating. I will eat again on Friday, and I have no idea what I’ll eat. Perhaps it’ll be a few sandwiches, or perhaps a salad. Whatever it is... it can’t damage my teeth. Oh, and this year I also decided to stop taking cough mixture as I’m unsure of whether or not it can cause my teeth to become discolored. I will, however, take cough mixture if my doctor tells me too. But even then, I will only take a sip on the days I’m eating food. By the way, I seem to always have a cough.
Why are things the way they are? Well, I’m too afraid of damaging my teeth. Not only by whatever I consume, but also by my strict cleaning regiment which includes: flossing thoroughly, several times between all my teeth, brushing for 20-30 minutes, and rinsing with mouthwash that contains fluoride for a minute. All of this can damage my teeth, so I figured the best thing to do is to do this as little as possible. I know if I eat anything I will have to go through that whole ordeal. That’s why the best thing to do is to eat as little as possible. Like the title suggests... I haven’t had a day where I’ve eaten properly since 2016.
This is day one without eating. Tomorrow is day two. I’ll eat on Friday again. Am I starving? Oddly enough, I am. I tend to not get all that hungry. Going a day without food is usually not a problem at all. All of a sudden, it’s vaguely a problem when I decide that I need to step it up and go two days without eating! Argh, I’ll be fine. It’s not causing me too much problem. If anything, I’m more worried about tomorrow.
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