So I’m usual pretty self aware of my illness unless in a full blown episode, in that I am blessed I guess depends on how you look at it, but I can feel that I am developing a new delusion but the more I think about it and the voices talk to me about it the more real it feels and I question everything because I believe that anything could be possible. Do I ride it out or say something. I usually see my mental health team (doctor,psychiatrist and psychologist) once a week but don’t see them for two weeks from now due to them going on leave I’m scared of being senctioned if I say anything