I am not particularly a fan of GPs or Practice Nurses after having some bad advice and some fairly careless prescription medicine administered to me. The general problem was anxiety and depression which I thought originated from a car crash in the early 2000s where I went through a windscreen and gained some fairly decent scars.

The past Christmas saw me at my definite worst where I broke down in front of the wife and genuinely thought all hope was lost. After the feelings got so overwhelming, I made an appointment to see a GP (they are rarely the same one, so no rapport) and I went as soon as I could. I tried so hard to keep it together, but ended up blubbering again, desperate for an answer. I told her I had a culmination of physical things that was wrong with me as a result of quite a sedentary and solitary life. Surprisingly, she was more concerned about my mental health and said my physical symptoms were possibly a manifestation of that.

I left no wiser and I didn't want any medication (no idea why I can't take medication, it's makes me 10x more anxious), so she arranged a blood test and I left.

When I got home, I sat there and thought there has to be more to life than this and I felt a bit of a desire to sort myself out by trying to analyse what was actually wrong with me. My daughter had bought me a book for Christmas about gut health, one of the complaints I had gone in with was a dull ache in my intestines somewhere top left, so I sat and read this book and discovered than having certain things wrong in your gut can even lead to low mood, tiredness, brain fog etc. These seemed familiar.

So the first thing seemed to be that I probably had an overgrowth of Candida, I did occasionally get a white tongue, but I just used to clean it and ignore it.

The second thing was Type 2 diabetes which I had been warned about then lost the weight and removed the symptoms, then regained the weight and more then seemed to have it properly. I think just knowing this caused anxiety and low mood, Not sure if they are an actual physical side effect.

The third and last one was testosterone. Weirdly I am sympathetic to my wife's periods, I bloat, get cranky and have a huge appetite. (there is a possibility that this is due to being a fat dramatic man, but I am searching for answers!) - so I think I am deficient in testosterone.

I know most of this is answered with a blood test, but I genuinely have a fear/rage/dislike of being judged/graded/tested and then suitably chastised and tutted at.

So I decided to fix myself.

The first thing I did was adopt the eight-week blood sugar diet, still partly through this. Going well, losing weight, no real hunger pangs etc.

The second thing was absorb coconut. Destroyed any Candida overgrowth I had. I use raw coconut oil in cooking, in coffee, just as a mouth rinse, as a body lotion, anything. It's amazing.

Thirdly was testosterone, not sure what to do about that, so I read up a bit, and have started weights, I eat more red meat, but I want to do it naturally and don't really want any injections or anything.

I take Vitamin D3, Cod Liver Oil, high strength Garlic, Zinc and Magnesium as daily supplements.

Any difference?

Well I might be premature, but anxiety has gone, completely. The things that use to panic spiral me, don't bother me. Not sure if happy is the word as I've not been there for a while, but I am actually not worried about things. You do however, have this cynical fear that this is very temporary and one little event is going to throw you right back down shit street.

I physically feel good, fitting into older clothes. Wife still looks at me with narrow-eyes waiting for the next episode and thinks I'm acting but for now I am keen to carry on.

Thanks for reading this long and arduous waffle.

TL;DR Had a car crash, thought it sent me mad, turns out I was just fat.