I’m not sure if this is pms or a relapse of depression again but I have no motivation to get things done again . I go to bed and make a todo list and I wake up and barely even do any of them . I feel what’s the point . How do I get myself motivated ? Not sure if I’m just being lazy

Maybe this is pms as I am due anytime soon. Yesterday after work I went straight to bed . I was upset about my new job and I didn’t feel like being awake

Yes I do have a history of depression - it comes and goes and they say it’s “recurrent major depression.” I also have seasonal affective disorder, chronic insomnia and general anxiety disorder .

I’ve been through so many damn ssris that I quit taking them. I switched to cbd hemp and thought it was working for 5-6 months and lately it seems I’m going back to where I was . Then if will lift a little bit and I find hope and then crash or I’ll get that feeling of feeling lazy. Thing is I don’t want to go back on antidepressants . I don’t have much to choose from anyway. I’ve been on celexa , Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Prozac , Paxil and Effexor . I’m tired of having my brain go through them when most of them I believe are placebos anyways and or eventually make me numb