I've noticed that I show people things, talk about things, in an attempt to prove myself. I'm not sure what exactly I'm going for. It's manipulation though, isn't it? I don't know if it's manipulation all the time, or if it's me trying to let the person know I care. I'm not sure. Part of it might be a fear of abandonment..that's not a good reason to express "love". It isn't even love, it's desperation. I'm going to keep working on this.