I don't know what mine is. I've been labeled bipolar, with psychosis. I've been told I'm a sociopath by people who know me. I strongly suspect I don't have bipolar and actually sufferer from narcissism and/or and abusive personality. I had a mania love style. I might be codependent. I have no idea. All I know, is when someone upsets me online, I lose my mind, and then I flip out, and then my clueless parents intervene, and the cycle repeats itself. I know I must just be a wuss, that's another diagnosis I've entertained. Why do I fly into a rage when I feel the slightest insult...

Why are my parents so clueless. Do you know how many times I've been thrown in hospitals? Do you know how many times I've had to deal with my mom saying "no you are ill" then dragging me away, or taking away my meds and watching me take them...Do you know how many times I've tried to express myself and talk about how I feel, and all I get in response is "are you taking your medications?"....It's at an extreme and extreme level of absurdity, I have controlling parents from a south asian background who don't know who I am, can't talk to me, and take too much care (not the difference between care and love...I'm not saying they don't love me)...just that they don't have a clue and are way too involved with my life...like obsessively cleaning my place when they come to visit even when it's clean.., and I've gone through a lot of unnecessary things because of them. Granted, this is actually the fall out. Someone messed me up, and it resulted in a very painful chain reaction that has lasted years, every since I was 17 and ended up in the hospital the first time. My mom herself might be a little codependent and narcissistic..she says emotionally abusive things sometimes and is very controlling of me, and very concerned for me...she cares a lot, almost too much, but she doesn't understand me, and this "illness" has made my life hell.