I'd really like some input from anyone who cares to listen. I've always been a resilient son of a bitch, despite coming from an abusive household. In 2008, I got plantar fasciitis, and then the fascia ripped off of my heel and my metatarsals fractured in several places. I did all the physical therapy, wore extreme orthotics to the point where I could only wear giant tennis shoes, but never felt better. I then turned to pilates/barre class and yoga, yet still never found relief. Since then, the pain has spread up my body, only on the right side. Over the next 8 years, every time I see a doctor they send me to physical therapy and it never helps. I'm in constant pain, but no one believes there is anything wrong with me; that I could fix it if I wanted to; that I'm experiencing emotional pain. Then my mental health started declining. This year, the job I've loved for the first 4 years I was there, has completely ruined me. My boss called me a crazy liar when I tried to ask him to stop arguing about how I feel about something... In front of my supervisor. Neither of them thought this was a big deal, and despite trying to stay strong and professional, I've completely broke down. Uncontrollable emotions and crying in the workplace and feeling like I always have to defend myself. I ended up having to get FMLA just to protect myself, even though I think this is all a result of being treated poorly. My manager even made me apologize to every coworker for crying all the time and explain to them that I have a mental disorder, and that I can take criticism from them. I've been on all the psychiatric medications offered, tried acupuncture and ayurvedic medicine, therapy on multiple occassions, neurologist, orthopedist, podiatrist, rheumatologist, special diets, more yoga (which makes me hurt more), more meditation, journaling, baths, you name it. Now my psychiatrist wants me to go on short term disability for 5 weeks and do an intensive outpatient therapy to learn coping skills. I really feel like I've been gaslighted this whole time. People tell me that I'm just perceiving things wrong, and that I must rely on others perceptions for the truth. A year ago I was smart, highly respected, and a strong leader, despite being in constant pain. Given that I'm only declining in health, I really don't know where to turn. It seems that everything I try, someone ends up telling me I should be doing something else. What the fuck am I supposed to do? If I could live alone out in the woods or a big ranch, I think I'd be fine, but I don't know how I'd make money. Any input is greatly appreciated, and thank you for listening to my long and possibly confusing rambling.

*TLDR: Trying to get better physically and mentally but only getting worse despite trying everything I can think of and that has been recommended to me. What's next?