What is really hurting me is my lack of social life. I haven't had an actual person to talk to regularly for over six years, almost seven.

I'm going to get to the point. I haven't been out with a friend for over six years. I ask them to hang out. They say no or they say that they are busy. I ask to get back to me when they are available, and they never do. I try making new friends.

It is really affecting my mental state. I talk to people online (because that is my only option at this point) to try and make up for it, and it has worked only temporarily. When I want to talk to someone in real life, the thought of it makes my face start tensing up because I need it desperately, but I definitely know I won't get it.

I feel like I am wasting my teenage years when they are supposed to be fun. I'm decently fit, my grades are fine, I'm not very weird, and I talk normally to people. People don't give me a chance. There's not much I can do about it except for wait it out.

If people in my life don't want to talk to me, there isn't something wrong with society, but something wrong with me. Maybe it is the boring life I have due to people not wanting to hang out with me that is causing no one to want to talk to me.

Every time I daydream about me and someone just talking outside of school, I have this sensation where I'm happy but I hurt due to it probably not going to happen.

I don't consider myself suicidal or anything, but having minimal human interaction for over six years is hurting me a lot. I'm not depressed, I really just can't handle the lack of social interaction over the past six years, as it is making me insane. I don't want to die, but at the same time I want to die just to not be crazy.

I've tried everything I can, but no one seems to care about me. I've just about given up.