Just feel like I need to let this out and speak to people as it’s hard for people to relate or help when I open up in person.

Basically over Xmas a situation occurred where my car had trouble, garage advised better off not driving to parents 200 miles away and get a rental car.

Rental car place has no cars left. Rang parents and told them I can’t come down for Xmas break because of not having transport, basically got spoken to like shit and insinuated that I’m lying and ruined Xmas.

I have not taken this well and now don’t feel welcome or wanted.

Backstory to my childhood in a nutshell:

• Dad beat me up as a kid. Whenever I did a good piece of work I was lying and faked it somehow. Dad beat Mum. Dad has rinsed my Mum dry for money all her life and not worked since I was 6.

• Used to be close with Mum but since I moved away 10 years ago it’s been constant emotional blackmail. I’m never visiting long enough and I never love her enough. Nothing is ever good enough. (Got her a £50 food hamper for mother’s day and she asked where the card was...never said thank you)

Basically I just need some outside help that I’m not being a horrible person, I’m not being unreasonable they aren’t normal parents?