I have two mental health appointments today, one is a counselor, the other is a psychiatrist. I want to skip the counselor— again. I know I shouldn’t.

Frankly, I don’t want to leave the house. I don’t like leaving unless it’s a quick trip to the store and back, and even then, it needs to be something I absolutely need and can’t wait.

I’m taking 150mg of Zoloft for manic depressive disorder everyday, but I still feel the lows. All the time. I am falling short taking care of myself. But my house is spotless.

I wonder if my mental illness is progressing. I quit my job because I was having a breakdown nearly every other day when I’d get home.

I have no desire to be around anyone except my husband and children.

I’m rambling. Apologies.