I'm not really sure where to post this so

Ever since I was a kid (symptoms really started to kick in around 7, but I remember a few from as early as 4) I've been a little off

I've heard and seen things that aren't there, very rarely but it seems to be really triggered by stress

I've had habits where I would flick my cheek, whisper the same thing over and over under my breath, constantly counting to 4, and similar tics

I've been extremely bad at socializing since around age 6 or 7 (I also moved around that time, but it's only gotten worse with time)

I've had minor delusions where it feels like I'm the main character of a game, where I'm some religious being, or where people are out to get me/single me out (I genuinely still believe people single me out though)

I frequently zone out, yet when I focus again I can't really move my body. My brain will be screaming at my body to move but it just won't. Sometimes my body seems to move on it's own, very rarely though.

I'm easily angered, irritated, I have a tendency to get into things then give up on it about a week or two later, and I have a tendency to laugh at certain things that I'm afraid of (for example I'm afraid of necks snapping and it makes me really uncomfortable to think about so I start laughing really hard about it)

I have an extremely hard time controlling my thoughts, yet my memory is quite sturdy, often times remembering very obscure small details that I was thinking about when things happened. I'm not too sure at how to describe it.

I have a tendency to take things as signs from God, or omens too. Like this one time I kept seeing the word trolley everywhere (Which was the nickname I gave to a girl I liked, long story) and I kept thinking "Something's gonna happen between me and her soon, I've seen the word a billion times today."

I also have a tendency to go from being extremely depressed and self loathing to having a God complex where I feel like I'm going to hit it big someday and everybody will know my name.

I've started to isolate myself from people recently, not going outside and I've become more lethargic.

And finally I've started compulsively thinking about self harm, acting upon it a couple of times now.

If anything this might help me explain things to my therapist in a couple weeks because I have troubles putting things into words, but I'm curious as to if this matches up with it, or if it could be something else. (I've taken tons of those stupid online diagnosis tests and they all come back positive, but I know better than to trust them, but because of how they all come back positive it's got me a bit spooked so I dunno anymore)

Sorry for the long post I didn't proofread by the way (I'm really tired right now)