This is just to document that suicide hotlines can be... hit or miss.

The first person told me that I should try to find religion.

The second person told me that I need to learn to push through and learn to find strength.

The third person told me that I should just wait until I can get help, even if it's months way. She also told me to remember that, despite my husband dying ten days ago, I will find other relationships.

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I literally told each of these people that I am suicidal and that I have a plan, but for reasons (health insurance, ID) I can't get crisis services where I live.