So I have been aware of this for a year now but have been feeling like this since I was like 12. Maybe I've been feeling it longer but I really don't remember cause I never really payed attention to myself when I was a little kid. I can't concentrate on stuff for a long time. I could be having a conversation with a group of friends and sometimes ( a lot of times actually) I just space out and start paying attention to my surroundings and then I'll snap out of it and go back to the conversation only to find my self lost and confused of what's being talked about. And I have even told myself to stop doing that and I will begin to lose interest. Unless I'm really engaging I'll tend to space out or do my own thing. A lot of times when I'm at my boyfriends, him and some of his friends/brothers will be sitting around the fire, and sometimes I'll join in and laugh with them but I'll find myself getting up a lot to get water or go to the bathroom just to get a break from there. In high school, sometimes I would also be sitting at lunch with my friends and then I would space out. They would ask if I'm okay and I would tell them I'm fine I just spaced out. But it was common for me. I'm 19 now and back then I never realized how much I spaced out. But as much as I lose concentration on something, I'm really good at school. I had almost all A's in high school. I was especially good at math. It might have been because with math, it's more of a visual learning experience. You have to do it yourself and see it to learn it. In history, my teacher just talked so I had a hard time paying attention to her or sometimes the words never really made sense to me. I'm not sure of you guys have experienced this. But sometimes, I can hear the words, but I can't perceive them. Like I don't understand what is being said. And this happens to me when I'm having a one on one conversation with someone and I'll just nod and agree if I don't understand what was being said. So I'm not stupid. I know I'm not. I'm constantly told by my boyfriend that I'm dumb. He won't directly say it but he'll imply it. After talking to me hell saying things like " are you with me? Or do I need to repeat myself again" "just making sure cause you don't comprehend things" I'm smart but Im slow. I can understand things, but at times it takes me twice as long to understand than the average person. It can be jokes, school related, or any subject. It frustrates me because I know I'm not stupid. And it makes me feel bad when I'm told I'm dumb. His dad will say things like are you a blonde and just dyed your hair black? Of course he means no harm, but I laugh it off but when my boyfriend does it, it hurts me. Im also very clumsy. I'll drop things and I am very forgetful. Last time I dropped mine and his bottled water. I said oops and picked them up and his respond was "I have a smart gf" :( I will also find myself pacing. I pace lot especially when stressed. I'll think and pace around the house. I noticed that my sister paces too. She'll be listening to music and walk around the entire house. No facial expression. It's odd and I do the same thing to. I also daydream every single day. I day dream about everything. Me going out on a run on a beautiful mountain. What it would be like if I was a dancer, a singer, an Astro naught. It's fun sometimes lol it's like a mini story about me. So I noticed that I tend to think a lot. I have lots of ideas and thoughts in my mind. Sometimes there's so much that it makes my head hurt. I also have a hard time sleeping with these racing thoughts. I also get bored of things. Because I stay up at night till 3 or 4 in the morning, I'll do a lot of things to entertain myself. I draw, then get bored. Start watching tv, get bored. Start dancing. I go to the gym sometimes to get rid of all my energy. I also like to try new things and often never really learn to be good at it. I got a ukulele about 8 months ago. I became uninterested in it about 2 months in. I started hoopla hooping and learning tricks and I also left that about 1 month ago. I also tend to misplace and lose everything. Especially my keys. Like ugh it's annoying!! And my life feels unorganized. All my school papers are everywhere. My clothes is everywhere. But everyone sees a mess, but ik where everything's at. So it's messy but it works for me. I'm just tired of all this. I want this to stop. All this energy and ideas. Sometimes I get excited and start talking fast and all my words come out jumbled up. Or Ill misread things. Talking about reading, I usually skim through things because just sitting down and reading everything when I only need main idea is pointless to me. I mastered this skill so im really good at it and helps me out in college. I also am the biggest procrastinator ever. Seriously. I will wait to the last. Minute and have those awful days of just homework and projects. It's frustrating but I get my stuff done cause I care about my grades. Anyways, is Is this normal? Am I crazy or something? Can someone relate to me? Maybe it's just everyone and I'm over analyzing things.