A neo nice guy who screens people for that ultimate goal of marriage. I'm not going to get into the details of this, but I was really hoping "they" were at least feminist psychologists. I want to have honest relationships with women, without the burden of thinking of marriage or if they're fit for dating, whatever that is. I don't think that's possible now, because in the back of my mind I'm always calculating for a ridiculous end and for ridiculous reasons.

It would've been nice, if I could've just been a little less sensitive to rejection (hard time with that in the past). That I could've just been a little bit more free to feel the pain and move on, but now I don't know who I am.