ok so I grew up in Bronx Nyc and I was painfully shy up until high school, where I started slowly making friends and having close relationships with people outside my family, which I never had before. Everyone at my school was pretty much the same, well off, from manhattan (the rich part of NYC), and had the same shopping habits/interests. Anyway, I felt out of place a lot of the time, so once in a while I would lie about things going on in my life (i.e. Where exactly I lived, what my family was like, etc.) these were things people couldn't really find this out because Nyc is so big and they were super detached from my culture and wouldn't ever go near my neighborhood. Eventually this lying became so engrained in me and I realized I had manufactured a whole life for myself. I kept my friends and family totally separate. Two different lives entirely with same basic elements I guess. I don't live in the neighborhood my friends think I do, I don't do all the things I say I do, I even lied about where I worked before to elevate myself. I lied about my middle name for some stupid reason even though it's on my ID. I guess I just wanted to be like my friends and my lying became so habitual it's pathological lying now. I became really popular being this fake person almost, I have tons of friends and they've never questioned any of it and they show me a lot of love. And I feel so bad. I don't lie about anything except my life at home. I just began college and I'm starting to think about the future. Idk why I lied or did it so freely these past few years but as I began to think about what is to come (in terms of finding a life partner and having kids, etc) I know I can't live like this. If I tell everyone I was lying I'll be disowned; I know people will think I'm crazy--and I'll lose all my friends. I have no idea what to do right now but I want to do the right thing. I realized how much I fucked up to this point and I just wanted to see if anyone had any advice. Thank you.