When driving home sometimes I drive as fast as possible hoping that a cop it sitting there catching drivers so I can take them on a chase. No slowing down or hesitating at any point. I say to myself "come on come on come.." as I'm passing a median or w/e it's called where they are sitting.

I don't care about the consequences. I know them, but when I'm in this phase or whatever it is, I don't think about them. At least not consciencely.

I know I put others in danger doing this. And I don't care. I know I'm a horrible person. I don't need to hear it. But what the fuck is wrong with me.