I've been letting emotions pass, thinking thorough and dismissing my intrusive thoughts, avoiding unhealthy coping mechanisnms and forcing myself to be creative... I wasn't sleeping well, but that was because I was staggering my sleep time with my boyfriend's so we both have time together but also time apart so we don't overwhelm each other...

But I'm smack dab in the middle of my period. ALl of my anxieties, thoughts, worries, and concerns are kicking my ass. I'm supr reactive. If I do anything or say anything wrong I flip out and go into full panic mode.

I need help. I'm trying to get help. I have a medical anf behavioral doc appointments set for this week but I'm terrified. Terrified that I did all this work just to lose my boyfriend in the process and kill myself because I'm so tired of starting from scratch with every relationship.