I stall upon this nothingness, whatever "I" try to perceive, feel or think. Everything, inside, is slugghish, apathetic, colorless and simply absent. I have schizophrenia since I am 10, I am 21 now. It is not even the main problem. I just feel in a permanent absent-mindedness state, like the concept of even me being a person does not makes any sense anymore.

Has anyone ever felt this way ?