Being a small female I have never been strong. I wish I was (I even work out partly for this reason) and fantasize about being violent towards others who I feel have wronged me but have never been in a fight. I am not sadistic and am more empathetic than most but I like the idea of violently beating something and think about it often. I hunt squirrels since they eat the flowers in my backyard (legal in my state) which gives me some satisfaction that honestly scares me a bit. I don’t want to hurt anyone and I don’t know how to shake this want. Thanks.