well to try and sum up as much as i can, im high functioning autistic, and also majorly depressed. ive been struggling with depression since i was like 10 years old and im currently 26. things have changed in the last year and now suicide isnt an allowable notion, it had always been my fallback and for a while the quest. Well for the same reason that its out of the question i figured i cant continue my lifestyle and decided to enroll back in college after dropping out in 2010. Its become very opbvious after one semester that i wont do well, not because the subjects are out of my reach but because i just cant deal with all the things going on in my life. so obviously have a real need for working coping mechanisms. add on to that im not exactly an introvert, i do like being around people and crowds. but the social issues associated with my asd make this borederline impossible. ive also never been in a relationship. the emotional pain of this lack of social interaction also holds me back largely. ill add more details to any questions asked as i dont feel like writing a book from blank, but all i know is that by myself i cant do this. any advice would be appreciated.