I (f20) get so depressed whenever I see females from porn, I've been trying to play it off cool for so long but it sucks so bad. It plays up with my bipolar and I get all these paranoid thoughts, it's crazy. Legit had to unsub even from all my nsfw reddit subs.

Maybe it's a sense of jealousy or that I don't feel good enough, especially when people close to me look at that kind of stuff.

So any tips on how to get over this feeling? it's getting kind of ridiculous.