When I was 14, I attempted to convince my 2 year-old sister to fellate me. In 20 seconds, I exposed myself, she turned her head away, I got the message and regained my f$%#ing sanity, and that was that. I'm done living like this; I can't rationalize what I did, I can't accept it, and I can't look at myself in the mirror. I want to die...I've thought about it, and I think I'm ready; I want to die.