I’m 17, turning 18 next month. Throughout my middle school life I was bullied and teased. I was falling apart emotionally and thought about killing myself. I don’t quite remember how it happened but I just stopped talking and showing emotion. I didn’t really have any friends and only talked to my self. I also wanted to add that I was molested by my cousin from the age of 4-6. Overtime I stopped “feeling” it’s not even really a copping mechanism anymore because I’m not sad or unhappy. I just lack the ability to empathize or feel love for anyone. I started consuming a lot of animal abuse video last year but stopped watching because I was starting to depend on it just to get through the day. I’m not trying to be edgy. I believe in unknowingly sacrificed my personality so I wouldn’t keep lo myself.