i am so sorry. i shouldnt be here.

Every now and then, i see somebody and want to kill them... but other times i think people will kill me

i keep looking around to see if somebody is behindme

basically im paranoid.. also, sometimes i daydream? about killing close friends and its worrisome.

occasionally there are periods of time where i dont know anything that happens... afterwards, everyone around me seems really worried.

I always see and hear things that arent there.

my memory is nothing, i cant even remember what i was doing before i posted this, i have huge blank spots in my memory

ive also been told that i should be able to express feelings other than "fine" but I cant, i never have emotion

help me please... i dont want to stay like this forever. i just want to be normal

im so sorry i shouldnt be here

PLEASE HELP ME. i will do anything if anybody can tell. me whats wrong.