I’ve always sort of hated myself. But there were things about myself that I was proud of. My intelligence, my ability to continue to learn, my ability to follow through with what I say I’m going to do, my ability to take responsibility for my own actions, my ability to be decent to others, my ability to stay out of the gossip loops, etc.

It seems like I’ve lost a bit of control here. I used to have pretty decent self discipline, but now I can’t seem to discipline myself.

I’ve never been great at taking criticism, but I’ve always been able to own up to my own shortcomings and faults. Now there seem to be a lot of criticisms (from others and myself) and I have no excuse. I’ve had a few breakdowns recently, and I’m at a pivotal point in my life. I want to go back to who I was, but I need help. Im working on it, but it’s so tough not to crumble when I do better at one thing and get criticized about another.

Any suggestions or experience with a similar issue?