When I was a little kid, I used to freak and stress out over the smallest things to the point it was unhealthy. I was also a perfectionist and would be irritated by the smallest flaws. (For example, I would be afraid of situations that were extremely unlikely to occur and once I had emotional breakdown over the imperfections in the plastic mold of a toy I had bought.)

Then in middle school, I started to not care as much as possible and/or just consciously forget about things so I wouldn’t feel so stressed out.

Now, I’ve been doing this for so long, I don’t feel much passion or feeling unless I’m feeling self pity or sadness. Even my long time hobby feels like a form of escapism but not of enjoyment. I just feel completely dispassionate.

My parents don’t believe in therapy or in mental illness as a whole so I cannot get external help. Is there any way I can reverse this lack of emotion on my own? (Ie self therapy..? Is that even a thing?)