I'm 17 so I still live with my mom and everything but we're not close at all, she's incredibly bipolar so it can be hard to get close to her, that's not her fault though. The problem is I can't tell her I'm depressed because she would freak out and never let me go anywhere or do anything or treat me the same because she would think it would mean I could die at any moment. But I know I really need a therapist, however because she doesn't know how bad things really are she super slow to get one because she's so forgetful. I've also been trying to get sleep medication for my insomnia but again she forgets all the time to get me a prescription. I don't know what to do anymore, I've tried a ton of stuff to better my mental state and to make me happier in life but I'm still getting worse. Everything seems pointless. What do I do? Telling my mom is not an option.