While I know this might be sort of asking for validation or may even come off as humble-bragging, I am confused. Pre-Script: I am a high school senior in India for reference. I find it easy to learn stuff I find intriguing, and have immense love for subjects like Astrophysics and Cosmology, but I find it really hard to concentrate for longer periods of time. The Good: I consistently achieve great ranks/positions in most competitive tests, have more than a few medals in a number of STEM related fields. I have an SAT in the 99th percentile (low 1500s), and also 790s on two Subject Tests (Mathematics II and Physics). I also authored my first book in junior year and the second one in sophomore year. The Bad: I struggle in high school, cannot seem to care about school administered tests (sub 75% aggregate scores). I feel like a sociopath at times, for I can manipulate most people into doing what I need of them, but I choose to also humiliate them consistently. I also have inconsistent character, as I might be empathetic/caring one instant but an asshole the other. I get distracted way too often by unusual things, like reading Reddit, Quora, or Facebook. Other distractions include random Rubik's Cube solving urges, craving oddly specific food items, or just aesthetically organizing my stuff. I also seem to have erratic short term memory and forget stuff that popped up in my mind seconds ago (there are too many things in my brain at one time). The Ugly: I am toxic. While I explain subjects to people with patience at first, if they do not understand it at one go, I turn cocky as to their ineptitude. I also feel that I am turning painstakingly elitist, as I look down on people with scores lower than mine (I do not act on these thoughts, obviously. It feels like I maintain a facade of 'nice-ness'). Help me.