Long story short my mind is on fire, I can’t sleep at night and cause I’m currently unemployed that usually leads to unwanted lie ins. Still not getting more than 5 hours of sleep usually. I can’t stop thinking about everything it’s like my mind goes a year an hour and everyone else is just going hour by hour.

I’ve had to cut down on my 80mg fluoxetine as I’m running out and only could get an appointment next Friday. I was gonna do is slowly and carefully but the last dose I took was 40mg about 3 days ago now. I’m supposed to be slowly coming off these anyway but that was before I had a breakdown and am now seeing a psychiatrist in two weeks for an assessment.

Additionally I know exercise helps me a shit tonne, pretty sure it’s what’s kept me relatively sane in the years previous to the last two, but I’m finding it hard to get it in with this erratic sleep pattern, unhealthy eating habits (my partner means well but they eat a lot of rubbish so it’s always there) and smoking weed every night now. Last night I was tempted to steal some of my mother’s diazepam again which I haven’t done for weeks cause I couldn’t turn off.

Has anyone else been through similar? I just need some advice cause I’m close to loosing it, thanks.