So, my mental health has been declining lately (its constantly fluctuating), and at this point it has been noticed at work in my performance. Ive been lucky enough to work with some very caring people over the past couple years that have been supportive and have gone well out of their ways to help cover my mistakes on my really bad days, but they dont know the degree to which i am suffering.

I called in sick today. Im at a point where i cant hide it, and im tired of hiding it. I just finished 6 months of therapy that i did of my own volitiion because i could feel myself getting worse and didnt want to have another breakdown. It was expensive.

I guess what im saying is i dont know where to start or what to do. My parents, the only 2 people i trust live hundreds of miles away. I dont have much of a support system otherwise. I need to do something today, to try and salvage my job and emotional state. but im not sure i can even get out of bed.

I cant think straight. Any advice is appreciated.