This does NOT happen with the things that I simply like. It only happens with the things that I become obsessed with. And it bothers me, because it fucks with my feelings and with my ability to get attached to things and people. For instance, I used to be really into a MMORPG a few years ago. I think I played it so much that I started to hate it and I moved on to other games. Then I met the first person that I fell in love with, and one year later I was asking myself what I saw in him that made me like him so much in the first place (I should mention that he is a great person, he is interesting, caring, sweet, and we never argued at all. I just fell out of love with him for no particular reason). I stopped talking to him because the relationship literally didn't mean anything to me anymore. Later, I fell in love with a band. This one was very STRONG, maybe even stronger than my first relationship. I loved this band and their music with such an intensity that they became my entire universe, and their music became the anthem of my life. Now, almost one year later, I literally can't enjoy ANY of their songs and I randomly started to hate them. Then it happened with a few hobbies like playing guitar or drawing. I was obsessed with both, until I randomly started to hate them and stopped. I'm thinking of selling my guitar.

After all these experiences, I am literally SCARED of trying new things, because I know that, at some point, I'll en up hating them. Again, it doesn't happen with the things that I simply like. I still have hobbies, music, games and people that I like and they're still a part of my life. However, I ended up hating everything that I once loved. What is this and why does it happen to me? Oh, forgot to mention that, after I stop being obsessed with a certain thing and I start to hate it, I will feel guilty for feeling that way towards it and I'll end up hating myself for the next 6-7 months for it. So I kinda switch between being obsessed with something to being obsessed with the sad realization that I have started to hate it and it drains me of all energy and positive emotions. I literally have no idea what it is, because I feel like this behaviour is NOT normal. Is this linked to any mental illness, in any way? I used to suffer from depression, but it's not so bad nowadays. I feel like I've improved mentally, but the obsession issue is still here.