Its beginning to look at lot like I have ADHD. I have been told by a therapist that I probably have it. I have reviewed various symptoms and used online tests (unreliable but still points in that direction). I don't know what to make of it. I am happy that so many of the difficulties I had growing up have been explained but I don't really know what to if get a proper diagnosis. I don't want it to change me and become my identity but I kind of want everyone who ever questioned my mannerisms to know the truth. I don't want to called a spastic or autistic because I am not. I might actually have something though and it is not fair to be seen that way if it isn't true. I know all the name calling is in the past but I still feel judged. Maybe not as out in the open but I'll always be a weirdo to some people. I don't know where it could lead me in relationships. I know that people with ADHD struggle and Im already a bit of a failure with the ladies. I seem to find myself distracted mainly by negative things and once I go into them to much I become depressed or extremely self critical. I am also socially awkward and boring and without charisma.