Lots of people seem to think that I have an unhealthy focus on violence. My dad wants question my obsession with True Crime documentary shows. Whenever I come up with hypothetical scenarios about violence, and post them on the internet, people accuse me of being mentally perverse, and say that I need help. And I don't really understand why. It seems as though these people believe that you should only think about negative things for a limited amount of time. And I don't think that's fair. Everybody is interested in different things. And just because somebody is interested in violence, it doesn't mean that they are more likely to commit violence, or remain complicit in violence. And besides, I am autistic, it's so sometimes I get fixated on certain things. And even so, I feel like I have the right to be interested in as many or as few things as I want to be. And people should not assume that I enjoy other people's pain or what have you. The problem, if it can be called a problem, is that the bad things in life are often more interested then the good good things in life. Think about it. What do you watch a movie or read a book where nothing bad happens. Why is it that every time something bad happens, the media is more likely to report it then with something good happens. Humans are hard-wired to be interested in Bad Things. It does not make you a bad person, I feel. But maybe I am out of touch and wrong. And I don't like it when people presume to tell me that I need therapy to deal with that stuff. Yes I do want to go back into therapy, but I am underemployed. I don't have any sort of healthcare insurance coverage. And I haven't yet figured out what types of free services are available in my area. And I don't know what types of Public Assistance I am eligible for, if any, such as any free insurance plan under Obamacare, or Medicaid or whatever else the government offers. And so I take offense to people telling me to get help, not knowing that I'm not able to do that this time. And I just feel very very unsupported in misunderstood. I feel like people are being very judgmental towards me.

What do I do? How do I cope with people who think that there's something wrong with me?