Never had any kind of therapy and I'm currently trying to reach out after years of delaying. There is only one psychologist/therapist willing to treat me. However they made it clear that all sessions will be taped (video). It's hard enough talking about the stuff but being recorded just fills me with anxiety and dysphoria. I'm afraid I'd just shut down and it'll only make things worse. I don't know if it's worth it or I just shouldn't get treatment.

Do any of you have experience with taped sessions? What helped you get accustomed to it? Were you able to speak freely?