I hate depression. I understand it, i understand what is happening to my brain when I mentally crash and yet with all this knowledge I know there is no way of stopping it. Laying here. After dropping 4 valium and still feeling like.i want to end it all. Only thing keeping me going. Is my 2 beautiful kids and my amazing partner. Thank Fuck for people who love me, they are so much more important than they will ever know and I was always fight just a little harder for them.