Since I was a child, I have a habit of tracing words from my thoughts on my lap whether I'm anxious or just plain bored. I'm currently in my early 20s and I still haven't broken the habit yet. On the contrary, my habit gradually adapted into a new form. I would trace not only words, but also random patterns (i.e. geometric flowers, symbols, etc.) on any surface readily available like on my laptop or on the table. I tried googling it but I can't find an accurate answer to this strange fixation.

To give you a glimpse of my background, I have a history of PTSD and major depressive disorder. I am currently unemployed so seeking professional advice is not an option for me now.

So my questions for anyone who is reading this are:

• Have you experienced the same thing too? Or do you know anyone who is experiencing something similar to this?

• Why do I have this habit?

• How do I break this habit?