I have an odd form of psychosis/schitzophrenia where I don’t see things that aren’t there, but instead there is a constant visual distortion to everything. Specifically, everything in my reality looks like an overexposed photograph, or like those pictures after a bomb has just gone off, and everything has that stark scary look to it. There is also a redness to everything, meaning everything has a slightly red tint to it. Yes, I have had my eyes examined and there is no problem there. I have also had MRIs, and there is no physical abnormality. Another symptom I have is thought disorder, and I have had a stay in an institution where I was diagnosed with schitzophrenia with major depression. But still, neither myself, or any therapist I have met with, has heard of a psychological disorder that causes a perpetual visual distortion that effects how everything looks like I have described above. At one point I thought this was derealization disorder, but this is not what this is. With derealization, it doesn’t make things look reddish, or like an overexposed photograph.

So on top of how awful this disorder is, there is also the loneliness of very possibly having a mental disorder that possibly no one else on this planet has. Is that possible? If it’s not true, then does anyone else have this?