My father always treat my mom badly, and he always abusive towards me. He openly cheats on my mom since i was little. And i've seen the fights, seen my mom broke down, etc. I don't want that happening to me. Currently, my mom is sick, she has kidney failiure, and she's not sexually able anymore. I found my dad trying to bang my aunt (my mom's older sister). And i feel so so disgusted. My mom still doesn't know.

I consider myself bisexual. For me attraction for females is more emotional, but for males is more physical. But bcs of what happened, i feel disgusted whenever i'm attracted to males. Idk how to take this, will it go away? What should i do?