The constant thoughts of being a failure, not being good enough for anything, being a fat lazy pos. I want to do things to get better but what’s the point? I get rejected if I put myself out there and try and make friends. I lay in my bed and constantly think that the world would be better off without me. I offer nothing to anyone. I’m so lonely all the time. Every second of every day is spent thinking about what a huge disappointment I am, what a failure I am. I’m never going to amount to anything. I have no friends, the majority of my family hate me, I have no job, no education and not a cent in the bank. I’m barely holding on. I can’t even tell you what’s keeping me going because I have nothing that is. So I don’t know why I even bother. I don’t know what to do, or where to post or if this is even allowed. I’ve been diagnosed with depression and anxiety but they changed the diagnosis to Bipolar 2. I can’t afford the medication for it. Well my script ran out nearly 6 months ago and I can’t afford to go to the doctor to get more. I guess this is more of a vent than anything.